* portrait of my LIFE

2007-03-15T00:18:00.000-07:00

hey guys,

i've moved to http://www.stuckontoyou.blogspot.com

thanks !! :))

2006-12-25T08:07:00.000-08:00

this christmas is the worst one i ever had.

it was nt his fault, its mine.
i am just being too demanding.

merry christmas, guys !
cheerios !

2006-12-19T23:30:00.000-08:00

I dont want 2 front teeth for CHRISTMAS but.....

a tattoo. :)) arent these font nice ? i've always wanted a tattoo on my ankle or at the back of my neck. but i've no courage to do so, for the fear that i will regret in future when i turn old and wrinkly.

A SONY T10 CAMERA .....

they are simply so beautiful and cute. :)) arent those colours so girly and sweet ? goddamn, i want it, i want it !! i must have it !! :P

JUNKFOOD TEES !!

any design will do. i am not picky. :P

APPLE IPOD NANO ! :P

A SONY VAIO C laptop.

omg, its so COOL and CHIC !!

2006-12-15T23:04:00.000-08:00

oooh....i hate blogger beta version.
what itchy hands i've got to change my version of blogger.
it totally sucks !!!

pissed off . totally.

2006-12-13T18:31:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 2nd ANNIVERSARY !! <3

babobei, i love you so much !

no words can describe how much i wish to be with you forever.

i just do.

please dont leave me, i need you.

promise ?

2006-12-09T23:34:00.000-08:00

went back to work for the first time ever since i ended my internship there.
feeling a little weird.
everything seems so strange yet so familiar.

so contradicting.

colorless day. bored.

by the way, thanks to CONSTANCE for these 2 cute little luggages. i hearts them loads. :))

where are you, my baby ?
so lonely without you by my side.

2006-12-07T23:29:00.000-08:00

the fairy lady and the dark slave. haha

i told you, he never take a nice photo of me before. :((

my stinky piggy. :))

our leftover. there were too much beyond our little tummy could hold. :))

the aftermath. going all bonky. :P

2006-12-07T23:17:00.000-08:00

YES .....

i do derserve a "little" break after spending one night doing all my reports and stuff.
but then again, this is what i ought to get as punishment for doing last-minute work.
my sister told me that i have this very bad habit of taking my own sweet time in getting things done,
be it dolling up myself for dates or be it doing my homework.
yeah, i know i am a slow coach and not a tiny weeny bit worried about getting late or getting punished.
alright, i am so fucked up.
this bad habit, i have to change. :((
yeah, no more last minute work.
omg, cross my finger and pray hard that i can really kick this bad habit off.

so, went to school late(as usual) for effective business report writing lab lesson.
seriously, i dread to go for her lessons. :((
her lessons are so boring and she's damn naggy lah,
but then again, for attendance's sake,
i still went in. :((
lucky for me, she did not teach today,
instead everyone were rushing for their reports and rushing to the printing shop to get their stuff printed.
*phew*
spared my eyes from her endless nagging and her kind-of-weird voice. :X
well, it was rather chaotic at that point of time for me,
i had to get my brand management report completed (i left one qn),
i had to get my cover page for the effective business report writing report done,
i had to get my appendices printed out,
i had to do this and that and this and that, blah blah blah.
i gave up.
i didnt print out any webpages from where i got my info from.
i did a lousy cover page for both reports with no NYP logo on it.
i couldnt care less.
i was dog-tired, my brain wasn't functioning well.
all i thought of was to submit my reports, pass my lanyard to someone who is attending lecture to scan mine for me and vroom, off i go to meet my baobei.
yes, he's my biggest distraction.

my afternoon went on colourless.
had BILLY BOMBER'S for lunch with him at CATHAY.
my virgin trip there.
haha
mountain tortise sia.
alright, so the food was kind of sucky.
maybe becos the serving was too HUGE for both of us, so got sick of the food after a few bites.
but the milk shake there was GREAT.
and the waiter who served us the milk shake was kinda cute. :P
after lunch, we headed back to his place,
we were too tired to go on shopping, plus he had to attend his aunt's funeral at night.

took a short nap at his place before heading home.
yeah, what a day.
hectic yet mundane.
but still, i am happy with him around with me. :))

night guys,
tomorrow will be another happy day for me. :))

2006-12-06T23:58:00.000-08:00

i am so pathetically stressed now. *argh*
i should have learnt from my previous lessons.

no last minute chiong-ing through the night for reports.

but i did it again. :((

2006-12-05T23:46:00.000-08:00

another highly-recommended movie by your beloved ME ! :))

2006-12-05T23:30:00.000-08:00

school's a boredom and its seriously driving me nuts. *argh*
been smoking more often than ever.
oh gosh, i thought i have quitted like so long ago ? :((
an utter disappointment am i.

alright, so stayed in school for awhile to get my effective business report writing ica started.
got to hand in by thursday and i just got it started on tuesday.
goddamn, how am i able to hand it on thursday ?
to top it off, i have to hand in brand mangement ica as well on that very same day.
FUCK !
why havent i learnt my lesson to start my reports and wait till the very last second to start chiong-ing through the night and getting myself all stressed up till i start pulling out all my hair ?
i am one lazy lass.
but well, anyway this will be my last chance in doing so.
since its my last semester in NYP.
hohoho
no mugging after march next year.
kinda sad huh ?!
boohoohoo

okay, so after getting my effective business report writing ica started,
(which i seriously did cos only the introduction was done)
initially, wanted to head down to vivo city to get some stuff, but in the end, i found myself at marina square instead.
haha
went to topshop to get myself 2 tops. (gosh, i spent my last few cents ! am pronounced broke !)
after which, i headed home becos' my brother bringing me and the kids for OPEN SEASON.
initially, baobei couldnt join us but in the end, he made it ! :))

OPEN SEASON is so damn funny.
nice show but i still like HAPPY FEET more. :P

shits, i did none of my reports tonight.
this spells trouble and loss of one night of precious sleep.

2006-11-27T22:58:00.000-08:00

its always nice having him by my side. :))

all i ever need is him, him, him and only HIM !
of course, there's my friends and fanily. :P

2006-11-26T23:54:00.000-08:00

tenacious D is such a lame show.
haha
super lame. but still, there's the moral of the story behind every story.
well, behind this very lame story, the moral of it is that we should be persistent and always be determined to work hard to achieve what we truly believe in and what we really want.
how deep. :P

5 out of 10 stars.
a star for that very lame cock push up. :P

2006-11-25T23:25:00.000-08:00

went for baobei's P.O.P with his mammy and aunt today at khatib camp.
it was a totally different kind of parade compared to the one i went during his BMT.
but as usual, i felt so proud of him. haha.
he looked so charming in his uniform.
wellohwell, there's just always something about a guy in uniform. :))
took many photos at the parade, shall post them once i get them from his aunt.
picture speaks a thousand words, so i shall save my time typing here. hehe.
anyway, you guys can see better with the photos, i am lousy with my words. :P

in the evening, baobei and i went to jurong entertainment centre to watch HAPPY FEET.
omg, i will give it 9 out of 10 stars. :))
it definitely has to be the must-watch-movie-of-the-festive-season.
haha
its funny, cute, its touching and i tell you, the music, the tap dance, and the songs sang by brittany murphy is all just simply great !
i am so going to get that soundtrack. :))

i love the amigos. they are so cute ! :))

here's the trailer below,

2006-11-20T22:51:00.000-08:00

54 years ago,

god brought this gift from heaven into the ONG family.
a little girl was born.
she was no ordinary little girl but she will be the most noble lady in future.
a great mum and the most perfect wife.

20 years ago,

despite her deteriorating health and consistent advice from doctors to abort the baby,
she gave birth to her youngest daughter.(supposedly an " accident ")
and this made her youngest daughter appreciates her more than ever,
becos if its not for her mammy, the baby would never be in this world at all.

thanks mum.

10 years ago,

they were celebrating this very special day for her with joy.
she was the most precious one in the family.
she was, she is and she will always be.
we love her, and we know she loves us.

happy moments will never last long.

5 years ago,

this day no longer bring us joy and happiness.
there will never be a year where i will spend this day without missing them or crying late in the night.
we lost her. we lost our dad.

pain.
memories will always remain deep in my heart.

happy birthday mum.
rest in peace, dad.

i love you guys. always.

2006-11-17T23:50:00.000-08:00

how time flies.
so soon, the first week of school has come to an end.

well, kind of miss the times back when i was having my attachment.
although, the working hours were longer,
but i felt happier with stuff to do,
i hate sitting in for long hours of lecture. :((

when i was having attachment,

i mish school.
i mish bitching with my girls.
i mish mugging.

but now,
i mish having stuff to do.
i mish my colleagues.
i mish picking up phone calls. (although, i suffered from phone phobia)

life's full of situations when you contradict with yourself.

wellohwell, can start to feel the stress already.
last semester, no mistakes is afford to be made.
chiong ah ................................ !
haha
hope i have the strength to go on for the last journey.
i am almost giving up.

i.dont.give.a.damn.anymore.
i.never.did.

2006-11-15T23:28:00.000-08:00

more more photos. :))

candid shot of my girls. :))

heng leng was so elated to take a pic with me again that she used the fork to poke her lips, to show her happiness. haha.

i insisted that he has to act cute in this shot. how is it ? haha.

my darlings. :))

with mr macho, hu shunrong. :))

with the very-motherly yvonne.goh. :))

with bryant. :))

i always look like a freak, no matter with who. :P

2006-11-15T23:23:00.001-08:00

more photos. :))

taken by heng heng's mobile. :))

jay is so cool in this mv. he is soooo hunkish and bad. i like guys who are cool and a little bad. :P

me and heng heng. taken with the courtesy by her mobile. again. :))

sooooo sweeeetttt......... :))

my lunch. its chicken but turns out to a little like char siew.

all of us. a family portrait. :))

we are from the one-one gang ! :P

pretty girls in the house. (except me)

minus that crazy JY. :))

2006-11-15T23:23:00.000-08:00

went k-boxing with the gang today. had a great great time. :))
whenever we go k-boxing together, all of us bound to get absolute high.
and i totally love this kinda feeling.
haha
well, its like you can be just totally yourself and behave like a total crazy bitch.
of course, this feeling only comes when you are with your buddies.
i went to k-box with his frens before, once.
i felt very uncomfortable and too shy to even touch the remote to dedicate songs.
=_="
i am not complaining but just telling you guys that if you wish to go k-box and get super high, please go there with your buddies or even your bf/gf.
okay, whatever.
haha

anyway, some photos below. :))

me and ah heng. :))

3 of us. haha. i tried to scare them that if there are 3 persons taking photo together, the one in the middle will die. well, its totally not true. i heard from someone lame. :P

she's getting prettier and sweeter. i am so jealous. :P

me and the 2 yvonnes. i love them. <3

my dearies. hearts them.

me and yvonne goh. :))

2006-11-13T22:42:00.000-08:00

darling,
happy 23rd monthsary to you !

whenever i am alone, i will start thinking.
thinking about how lucky i am to be with you.
you have been a great bf, and i am really glad that i have chose you.
it was just like a dream coming true for me.
i have always dreamt of having a bf who is romantic, who is sweet to me, never fails to surprise me with the things he does, most importantly, one who understands me.
and you,
you are one who is romantic, romantic in your own unique way.
you are one who is always so sweet and never fails to melt my heart with the things you do for me and the words that you spoke to me.
you never fail to surprise me. i will always remember what you did on my 19th birthday, it was the most romantic surprise i ever had.
you understands me and knows me inside-out, knowing what i want, what i need and knows how to continue what i want to say.
yesh, we got tele-puppy.
haha

though there are times, i am really very upset with what you have done.
though there are times, we had different views and arguments.
but, we've braved through all that.
now, we are in the very happy stable situation.
(wedding bells ringing ?)
haha
and i really wish to hold on to what i have now.

in the past, i took people who truly loves and cares for me for granted.
i thought i deserve all that and they will always be there for me even if the feeling doesnt reciprocate.
but now, after being through all kind of shit, i learnt to cherish what i have , especially you.
you have been there for me when i am down, though you did nothing much but you lent me your listening ears. that is enough.
you have been there to take good care of me and make sure i am happy even though its not what you want.
you try to give in to all my nonsense, jealousy and unreasonable behaviour.

thank you.
i truly appreciate that.
i thought no one in the world would appreciate a girl like me, but you made me feel loved and wanted.
i have nothing to give you in return but to love you more and promise that in this life, i will never let you go.
unless, circumstances do not allow us to be together anymore.
if not, dont ever think of running away.
haha

i love you, baobei ! :))

2006-11-12T13:36:00.000-08:00

Nick Jr event at VivoCity yesterday.
worked as temp staff for the event.it was one of the project that jr's attachment company is in charge of and i decided to "help" out.
haha
bloody tired after the whole event because of the long working hours (7am to 7 pm).
but, wellohwell, i had fun at the event with all the kids and my "new" frens. :P
the kids are so CUTE and ADORABLE !
i am sure if baobei went to work for the event, he sure go crazy with all the kids around, he loves kids. :))

the whole event, i have to say, did not went that smoothly due to the sudden heavy downpour that caught us unaware.
all of us were drenched. i had a slight fever later in the night after i got home. :((
but nevertheless, like i said, i enjoyed myself. :))

after the event, baobei came to pick me up.
poor him who came straight after he booked out from camp.
he didnt even went home for bath or whatsoever.
he so sweet, right ?
haha
went shopping with him at VivoCity and got myself 2 tops and earrings from forever21, also 2 tank tops from fox.
baobei bought himself an adidas jacket, the stan smith edition.
omg, he look so fabulous in that.
so cool ! :))
haha
then, we had dinner at the gloria jean's cafe.
the food kinda suck but the coffee were superb.
after all, its a CAFE.
oh, the receipt that we got was so cool, it has baobei's name on it because he was the one who ordered the food.
next time, i shall order the food, so the receipt will then bear my BEAUTIFUL name.
haha
i am so mountain tortise sia. :P
so after dinner, we cabbed home.

a happy day ! :))
because of him.

now, i shall continue with all the photos. :))

aint he just ao adorable ? i wish my son will look just as cute as he is.

her name's faith and she has a younger sister. 4 yrs old and she really loves being around with me. :))

lunch at carl's junior. i love the burgers there, it can fill my tummy for the whole day, can save money. haha.

nice pic. i love this photo taken from yvonne's instant camera. shit, now shld i buy a digi cam or an instant camera ? *hmmmmm*

we were playing a game with the kids where losers has to paste stickers on their faces.
look at yvonne and you should've guessed who is the loser among us. haha.

her name's tricia and she's two this yr. her mama's HOT, man !
kelvin aka andy and me. :))

me and yvonne liaw. at 0730 hr in the morning. *argh*

the rest of the photos. :))

for more photos, please visit zhang junrong's blog. his link could be found under my friend list. thank you. :))

2006-11-10T22:37:00.000-08:00

last day of internship.

on the verge of tears. dont bear to leave the place.
the people there are just simply great.

still, i have to move on.
it has never been a place that i belong after all. :((
i'm just a passer-by.

good bye.

2006-11-08T22:36:00.000-08:00

just finished reading through my previous blog entries.
it has been almost 3 years since i started blogging.
started off just for fun, slowly, blogging became one of the must-do-thingy whenever i log on to the net.
till today, even though i stopped writing lots of stuff like i used to,
habitually, i still log into my blogging account.
haa
alright, guess i should start writing more again like i did in the past,
stop being lazy ! :P

2 more days and i'll be ending my internship at HTNS.
feeling happy yet sad.
happy that i would be able to spend more time with my girls bitching, gossiping and shopping,
(i really miss them alot)
i would have a more flexible schedule where i can have my time to do my own stuff.
sad becos i would have to leave a place where i just started to get used to it,
most of all, was unable to see the people that i am just getting close with.
you see, i am not a person who shows my true self to anyone.
i wont show people the very emotional side of me easily,
i wont show people the very crazy side of me easily,
i wont pour my woes to just anyone easily.
only to people whom i call FRIENDS.
to me, the girls i worked with for the past 2 months,
they are not colleagues to me, but friends.
and i really hope the friendship between us would really goes on even after i left.
but never mind, soon, i'll be back with them again. :))
cos' i am going back there to work as part-timer.
hoho

alright, good night guys.
got to wake up early tomorrow.
cos' i'll be opening the reception counter tomorrow, so cant be late.
:))

2006-11-07T22:28:00.000-08:00

went surfing the net and found some horoscope thingy. quite accurate at some parts, while some...hmmm...well, its up to you guys to tell me if its accurate anot. haha.

for ME ! :))

Aquarius Characteristics

Aquarians have a god sense of humor. They are gentle and caring and they are not very sociable. They to prefer to be alone or with their closest friends. That's why Aquarius chooses its friends carefully. They like to receive compliments and are ready to forgive when harmed. They can easily entertain other people which makes them charming and wanted. Usually they are calm and sincere. However, when they get angry, they can be dangerous. Most of the times they overestimate the sincerity and the promises of their partners for which they regret later on. Aquarius is ruled by Saturn and Uranus. Aquarians are good workers and usually are paid well. Aquarians usually have many different hobbies and are creative and skilful in many areas. Aquarians are good computer scientists, doctors, pilots and writers.

For my precious him :))

Pisces Characteristics

Pisces are a little bit of everything. They are independent and mystical. They are sensitive and loving. They can easily adapt and change according the situation. Sometimes they are so colorful that they contradict their own rules and principles. Pisces can handle many different tasks at once and be successful in all of them. They can tolerate other people's behaviors. This makes very strong friends out of them. They also learn easy and can change professions without concern. Although trying to be independent, they like to have somebody above them to mange all the tasks they perform. Pisces are ruled by Jupiter and Neptune. They are religious and pay strong attention to family and relationship values. Pisces are good for any profession as long as they are not the major players.

2006-11-05T22:52:00.000-08:00

ta da ! yummy cookies done. :))

side track a little. cam whoring while waiting for the cookies to be done.

that idiot me. i got so tired of waiting. :((

in the oven. baking in progress, stay out ! :P

promised jenny to bake some cookies for her before she leaves for shanghai, becos by the time she comes back from her leave, i would've ended my attachment and most probabaly, i wouldnt be seeing her for quite awhile until december, when i go back to HTNS to work as part-timer. definitely, i know i am going to miss her. jenny has been a great mentor, she has taught me many things and i really appreciate that.

thanks jenny. have a great time at shanghai. :))

2006-11-04T22:44:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to my dearest and most precious BROTHER !

thank god for blessing me with such great brother. like you always said, till the end of our lives, the one that will support you and loving you with no condition is your family. trust me, i will be there with you till the end of the days.

i love you. :))

2006-11-02T23:20:00.000-08:00

i am so BORED that i kept doing tests after tests.

yes, that is how BORED i am !

2006-11-02T22:55:00.000-08:00

You Are Strawberry Pocky

Your attitude: fresh and sweetComforting, yet quirky ... quietly hyperYou always see both sides to everything

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

2006-11-02T22:44:00.000-08:00

You Are A Realistic Romantic

It's easy for you to get swept away by romance...But you've done a pretty good job keeping perspective.You're still taken in by love poems and sunsetsYou just don't fall for every dreamy pick up line!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

2006-11-02T22:38:00.000-08:00

You Are 44% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

2006-11-02T22:35:00.000-08:00

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.
You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

2006-11-02T22:34:00.000-08:00

You Are 52% Control Freak

Generally, you are in control but not a control freak. You life is usually in order.However, sometimes you get too obsessed with making everything in your life picture perfect.

Are You A Control Freak?

2006-11-02T22:32:00.000-08:00

Exotic Dancer Name Is...

Honey

Exotic Dancer Name Generator

Your Penis Name Is...

The Bald Avenger

Penis Name Generator

dear dear's penis name. oh hoho. :P

2006-11-02T22:25:00.000-08:00

You Are "Dizzy and Giddy"

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

2006-10-29T23:58:00.000-08:00

photos taken at VIVOCITY ! :))

hearts <3

2006-10-29T22:38:00.000-08:00

so, there goes my beautiful weekend, doing nothing much.
kinda wasted the weekend. :((

but, nevertheless,
i was very happy to be able to meet up with him and like, finally,
i've been to VIVOCITY ! :))
its such a huge shopping centre, just like the second orchard.
most of the famous brands like adida, topshop/topman,mango, forever21 and blah blah blah have their flagshops located there.
its just so great, should go on a shopping spree one day with the girls there.
oh, and the sky park is really beautiful at night, so romantic.
good dating location for couples. :))

alright, tomorrow's working again.
left just 2 more weeks and i'll be back in school.
anticipating ! :))
i mish the girls soooo much !

till tomorrow, gd night !

2006-10-26T22:17:00.000-07:00

Vivek's Marriage Proposal to June Bollywood

how sweet !
though, he's kind of silly in the video. :P

2006-10-25T22:52:00.000-07:00

Which is your favorite room in your home?

1)Bedroom
2)Living room
3)Dining room
4)Bathroom
5)Kitchen
6)Balcony
7)Study room
8)None at all

Bed Room:
You are an imaginative and colorful character. You believe in true love but until you find it, you'll have fun flirting. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make insecure people feel jealous.

is my boy an insecure person ?
i doubt so.
haha

2006-10-25T22:49:00.000-07:00

some guys are just so simply sick in their head.
i hate sick perverts.

gosh

today, i was tailed by this guy who wears an orange cap and orange tee. (sunkist orange?)
he waved to me in his car when i was walking to the mrt station after work and he even asked me to get into his car.

how sick can these guys get ?

ohmygod !!

guys, if you are reading this,
please do not be such a pervert or get this sick in the head.
or may be i should say, have some better taste. :P

seriously, i got so pissed off by this matter,
not only by this guy but by my boy's attitude.
well, let's not mention it. (it kinda make my blood boil)
but, this little "lesson" made me learnt that i should be more independent and not depend on him that much.
after all, when he is not around, no one is there for me to rely on.
and when this kind of situation happens, i ought to protect myself and not seek for him.

ps: thanks dear for accompanying me for lunch. i am very happy. :))
how i wish that everyday, you would be able to be with me.

2006-10-24T23:43:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI !

i just love public holidays !
haha
becos i can meet my bf and take a " legal " day off from work.

i have been so stressed up at work for the past week,
to top it off,
its the time of the month when aunty comes paying a visit.
suffering from severe mood swing and have been feeling super tired.
:((

wellohwell, on the lighter note.
met up with him today.
went town-ing and had pepper lunch for lunch.
haha
laid my eyes on many stuff, but got to wait for next month's pay to arrive.
:((
dear said he would buy that pair of levis jeans as christmas pressie.
how sweet ! :))
after town-ing, went to IMM to help his mama buy a dvd recorder.
well, didnt get one in the end, she changed her mind.
so we bought mee suay for dinner back to his place,
we havent eaten it for a long long time. :P
watched tele for awhile, caught a cat nap and off he goes back to his camp,
as for me, back to my " prison cell " .
:((

it has been quite awhile ever since i feel so happy.
and all thanks to him for making this day an enjoyable one for me. :))

* my blogging skill is getting super rusty. all i can do now is uploading tonnes of photos. :P

2006-10-23T22:23:00.000-07:00

there are so many things that i wish to blog about,
but whenever i lay my big fat butt right in front of the monitor,
my mind went blank.

thus, i havent been blogging for quite some times. :P

2006-10-22T23:36:00.000-07:00

http://newpaper.asia1.com.sg/news/story/0,4136,116005-1161554340,00.html?

this is the saddest thing that can ever happen to a man.

man killed himself at the chinese garden mrt station.
all he had was $ 16 with him.
his wife had no money to claim his body, which was already in pieces.

this is what a person can do when out of desperation.
my heart goes out to him and his family, esp his wife.

when i read the article, the first thought that came to my mind was that he must be feeling terrified when he laid himself on the mrt track.
only a person who is determined to end his life have such courage.
i felt very sad for the way his life had been.
really.
but i do not admire his courage. the courage to kill himself.

i dont blame him for wanting to end his life.
i cant and have no right at all.
i wanted to end my life. i attempted suicide.
i know how he felt,
lonely, helpless, desperate.

but ending his life will not be the best solution.
he is running away from reality, running away from responsible.
he did not spare a thought for his wife and kids.
the pain they suffered is just as much as he is, if not, more.
how is his wife and kids going to cope with life in future ?
they may be poor but having a complete family will be happier for them.

i have lost the people i love most and i know how it felt.
the pain, its beyond what words can describe....
i pity the wife and the kids.
i wonder what will happen to their life in future.

but most of all, i pity the man.
he must be really desperate.
i am very sure he must be in great pain.

may he rest in peace.

* think about how lucky you are compared to others. do not take things for granted.

2006-10-22T23:20:00.000-07:00

me and my gal. :))
she's such nice person to work with.
i love her.
damn, i am so going to miss her when i leave this place.
of course, i'm going to miss CONS and JENNY, JASON, NAS, LYNN, PRIVATE YANG and many many more..... :((
they are such lovely people.
i hearts them. <3

2006-10-21T22:57:00.000-07:00

my mama and papa in their younger days. :))

my mama. she's pretty, isnt she ? like mama, like daughter. :P

oooh...my papa's such a hunkish guy. my mama's so lucky to marry him. :))

2006-10-21T22:44:00.000-07:00

talking about old photos, i have some old photos of myself when i was younger. :))

me and my parents. aint i just so adorable ? haha

i love that care bear soo much !

when i was in primary school. so damn fat lah. haha.

when i was 4 months old. chinese believe that they have to give the baby a drumstick when they are 4 months old. i dont know the significant about it. :P

2006-10-21T22:36:00.000-07:00

walking down the memory lane.

the 3 little pigs. my brother, my sister and i. :))

me and my ever-so-handsome brother. he hasnt changed much over the years. *envy

me and my parents. i love them so so much and i wish i could tell them when they were still around. for now, i just pray that they are able to hear what my heart says.

the smile that would never be the same again.

stumbled upon my old photo album and came to find some of these old photos taken on my 10th birthday.

looking at those smiles on the faces, i wonder, if they are still around, maybe these smiles wouldnt have faded away.
now, nothing much can make me smile like the way i used to.

* i love you guys very much. be happy.

2006-10-17T23:35:00.000-07:00

went to the gym today with jenny. :))
my virgin experience.

2006-10-16T21:45:00.000-07:00

not a fantastic blogskin.
but somwhow i love it.
because its personalised.
wellohwell, i didnt create this skin myself but copy and paste, deleted and cut some stuff.
i aint so creative and talented. :P

still, i like it. :))

2006-10-15T22:31:00.000-07:00

some random photos. :))

me and my best cam whoring khaki. he's got many poses. :p

my favourite girl. she is so adorable. :))

she and her mama's phone.

does she look like me ? :P

2006-10-15T22:17:00.000-07:00

thanks my dearest for buying yet another ring for me.
i promise not to lose this one again. :p

2006-10-14T23:17:00.000-07:00

some random shots of me and him in the cinema before the movie begins. :))
<3
he's too dark to be seen.
oops. :P

2006-10-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

watched DEATH NOTE with him after our super delicious lunch.
cant wait for the second part of the movie. :))
it comes in 2 parts actually.
no wonder, halfway through the movie, it was still on the first few books of the comic which i had read.
haha.
movie rating 8/10.
its almost similar to the comic, the effects not too bad as well. :))

Light VS L. who would you support ?

just imagine you have the ability to kill anyone and control the way how someone else dies, what would you do ? i would kill myself first. the world is a fuck up place to live in. even if i kill people who i dislike or whoever do not deserve to live in the world, it still wont make me happier or that this world would be a better place to live in. worst of all, i am like any criminal becos i kill.

Ryuk is such a hip god of death. haha. he's cute too. he knows that an apple a day keeps the doctor away, how CUTE ! :P

omg, i think L is so CUTE ! he maybe a little weird, but he's intelligent and CUTE ! lol

Light was more handsome in the comic. the actor looks like he got a swollen face. haha. he's bloody skinny lah. wellohwell, he's cute too.

2006-10-14T22:50:00.000-07:00

slurpy lunch at PARGON, SPAGHETTIS before the movie.
his treat. :))
thanks a million, baby ! :))

before. looks super good, smells xtremely great and the taste was super duper delicious. :))

i felt so belly happy after gorging up the food. *slurp*

2006-10-13T22:37:00.000-07:00

22 months and still going on strong. :))

my love for you is beyond what words can desribe.
i am the luckiest girl in the world to have you as a bf.

thanks a million.

2006-10-12T15:28:00.000-07:00

oooh....i hate blogger beta version.
what itchy hands i've got to change my version of blogger.
it totally sucks !!!

pissed off . totally.

2006-10-12T15:11:00.000-07:00

some overdue photos from the OPEN SEASON event at PS. :))

me and kelvin tan.

me and my beloved. hearts her. :))

2006-10-11T22:38:00.000-07:00

she loves HELLO KITTY !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my LITTLE PRINCESS ! :))

2006-10-07T22:13:00.000-07:00

yummylicious dinner at FISH & Co. Glass House. :))
nice ambience + great company (mainly HIM) + tanalizing dishes = a GREAT night. :))
hearts him a million. :))

yummy FOOOOOOD !! :))

fresh oysters. slurp !

that girl behind thot i was taking a shot of her, but i was not. :p

i love this photo. :)) i look like his little sister. haha.

he kept watching tele, instead of paying attention to me ! hrmph.

ps: this meal was on ME ! haha. its been such a long time since i treated him to good food. i am so proud. :))

2006-10-01T23:11:00.000-07:00

rob-b-hood ! :))
baby matthew is so so cute, handsome and ADORABLE ! how i wish in future, my baby's so cute.
guess i ought to go find one ang-moh husband for the sake of my kid.
haha.
louis koo's hot. he's so so so cool. its no wonder how come he has so many female fans.
gosh, he's so drop dead handsome.

the movie on the whole, i would give it 8/10. the storyline's a little lame though and how could they asked my fave daniel wu and nicholas tse to play the role of sissy, timid gays ? :((
guys, if you havent seen the show, go catch it. :))
its worth the price.

2006-09-30T23:03:00.000-07:00

sweet moments. love love. :))

a perfect family. sweeet.... :))

hearts a million. :))

2006-09-30T22:58:00.000-07:00

more photos.. :))

butterfly. haha.

pretty girl and handsome boy. :))

my bro-in-law with his 2 kiddos.

me and my little baby boy. :))

the 2 little monsters. :))

are we at PARIS ? how i wish. haha.

little nephew looking at the lantern display. :))

2006-09-30T22:56:00.000-07:00

mooncakes, full moon, chinese tea and lanterns everywhere.
one of the chinese traditional festival is making its way here again.
paid a visit to the chinese garden with my beloved ones.
an enjoyable family outing, i have to say. :))

pretty indian dancers. :))

me and my dearest. :))

my little handsome nephew. :))

can you see us ? :P

what are they playing with ? :P

happy family of 3. :))

at the enterance. :))
over the bridge. the family.

2006-09-28T23:44:00.000-07:00

sudden thought of snipping my hair away.
am i crazy or what ?
haha
i just feel like having a new look.
getting a little sick of my straight hair even though it has been there for only just like 3 months.

had long hair for the past 14 yrs of my life, decided to spot a tom-boyish hairstyle when i was in sec 3,
tried to keep long hair ever since but was never quite successful.
had shoulder-length hair for the past few yrs,
tried having curlies for about less than 3 months at the beginning of this year.
then, bid good bye to curlies and got back my straight lovely hair,
now i actually thought of having short hair again.

like what jeremy always said,

" you alot of pattern hor ?! "

haha

but wellohwell, even if i tried snipping, dying, perming,
i had never tried any outrageous hairstyle.
seriously, its a pity i do not have such courage. :((

i feel that in life, we should try all sorts of stuff and live it to the fullest,
after all, like the m1 ad's catch phrase,
one life, live it
but to think about it, how many people can actually do that ?
countable.
people who love life, take risk and pursue their dreams.
for me, i am a people pleaser.
i mind what others think about me and i try to be what others would like about me.
but, pretence is tough.
i am not who i seem to be and its hard being not who i am deep inside.
i feel i am leading a life that i have no total control in.
i should lead a life the way i want it.
i admire people who care nothing about what others think.
they are truly courageous.

i am so nobody in this world.
sometimes, i feel i am so tired of living,
i wish to just vanish into thin air.
after all,
life's destination is death.
no one can be able to escape from it.
its just a matter of time when we will reach the destination.

life's can never be perfect. its just how you live it.

2006-09-26T23:52:00.000-07:00

work's taking over my life.
ohmigosh, and i hate it.
alright, its been the thousandth times that i am complaining about WORK !
yeah, but seriously,
I HATE IT !

haha

frankly, work is not that bad nor tough,
yes, becos i can surf the net at the reception when there is nothing much to do. :P
and people there are rather nice.
maybe just that i do not have much time for myself anymore.
i mish shopping ! :P

like what esther said, there is politics at eveyrwhere and anywhere,
of course, my company do have some politics as well,
but, i try not to poke my nose in.
i just wish to complete my ipp and get my butt off.
yes, i do have the thought of working part-time there when school re-open,
for the time being, i just do not wish to get invovled in any politics.

can i ?

cross my finger. :P

was blog-hopping just now.
came across this girl's blog and seriously, i think she is a bitch.
ohmigosh, she seems to enjoy basking in guys' attention and showing off how many guy frens she has, having so many guys showing interest in her, blah blah blah.
ewww....
sound like i am so jealous of her becos i do not have any guys' attention except maybe from my bf and my brother.
even i have attention from both of them, it aint alot anyway.
haha
sounds a little sour here eh ?
alright, i just do not like girls who try to show off that she is popular with guys and have many flings or guys going ga-ga over her.

lately i have this wish,
and i wish i can be prettier.
i am so ugly and fat and short,
totally not satisfied with my appearances.
no guys want me as well !
:((
can someone please recommend me a plastic surgeon ?
haha

good night.

ps: i am going crazy under so much stress and pretence, thus the nonsensical entry.
haha
i am so sick of life.

god, please take me away to else where,
someone where my parents are.
this place has nothing for me to live for.

2006-09-18T12:38:00.000-07:00

seriously, i have nothing much in mind to blog about at this very moment.
but i just want to blog.
ain't i funny or what ?!

haha

gosh.
got back my result the other day (some days ago), but went to double check them again today becos i cant believe i clear all the modules.
haha
no worries, my eyes arent playing tricks on me.
:P
thank goodness.
i just want to clear all the shit in my final year and get out of NYP.
alright, i aint saying that NYP is not a gd school but its just the fact that it isnt that great after all. :P
wellohwell, NYP is just a place where it hold many significant moments of my life, a place where i've made many friends that i really wish to cherish my whole life.

it carries the most heart breaking memories of me and benn.
it carries the most happiest memories of me and felix.
even though it carries many memories of a few of my r/s,
i am so glad that my girls are here with me thro the years.
esther, yvonne goh, yvonne liaw, heng leng and jieying are my darlings.
always.
no one knows how glad i am to have these girls as my buddies.
they are so lovable.

alright, heading out for lunch soon.
i am so hungry !
blog again later when i have time.

hehe

2006-09-17T23:34:00.000-07:00

tomorrow will be the 4th week into attachment.
and life have been so stagnant ever since it started.
seriously, i kind of detest such a life.
a life about work and helping out at home everyday.
all my energy are drained completely at the end of each day.

but well, work is not too bad.
picking up things quite well at the reception counter and getting along quite well with the people there. :))
my job scope basically just consist of picking up phone calls, providing the right information to the members and transferring their calls to the right person-in-charge, help members to make payment to whatever they are paying for, help members to book chalets and facilities, change swimming pool cards and blah blah blah. at times, when there are more 3 staff working at the reception counter, i would be at the office doing some admin stuff like keying in data.
sometimes work can be quite slack but at times it can be a total nightmare.
especially when you meet naggy and troublesome members or some unresonable ones.
there was once when i was complained by one member.
shant go into details since it has past quite some time ago.

meeting different kind of people and getting the taste of what working life is all about,
i can tell you, life is a misery and it sucks.
gosh, welcome to the "real" world, man.
its no wonder why there are more and more singaporeans getting depression and going insane.
and soon, i'll be one of them.
:((

alright, no more whining.
there's always something in life that can cheer us up a little and forget all the things that get us down.
and for me, that will always be my baby boy. :))
i am just so glad that we havent give up this r/s that day.
we were on the verge of breaking up and well, technically, we did.
but he persuaded me not to.
i was pissed off with him initially.
i said many hurtful words to him.
when i cooled down a little, i guess i was in the wrong as well.
i should give him all the freedom he wants.
he has every right to have friends and make new friends.
but why cant he get my point and understand how i feel ?
i think i know too much for my own good.
i should just shut both my eyes and let him do what he wants.
he told me, what's mine will be mine.
easier said than to do.
:((
never mind, now we are still as loving as used to be.
just hope things will still go on well for us.
he is the one i hope to spend my life with.
hope he's mine.
:))

okay, got to go catch a wink.
tomorrow will be another boring day. :((

2006-09-13T23:13:00.000-07:00

life is so shitty.
its all about work, work and WORK !

i am so exhuasted, please give me a break !

:((

unhappy.

2006-09-12T15:15:00.000-07:00

some overdue photos found !! :P

photos taken during OPEN SEASON event at PS. :))

me and kelvin tan lai heng. corny name. haha.

me with my beloved. hearts her loads.

two bars of chocolates. yummy ! :P

me and yvonne goh. i love her to bits.

the threesome. i look damn ugly lah. :((

2006-08-31T23:38:00.000-07:00

happy birthday to YVONNE LIAW !! :))

happy 20th birthday to you, my dear.
welcome to the BIG 2 club. haha.
another aunty joining us. oops. :X
enjoy your day and do take good care. :))

happy birthday to FARAH ! :))

you are definitely a fun girl to work with.
without you guys, guess i'd be bored to death.
haha.
stay so cute and pretty always. :))
all the best to you and your sayang.

lastly,
happy birthday to my ever-so-lovely HENG LENG ! :))
( who's birthday falls tomorrow on teacher's day )

from a little girl to now a little woman,
you've matured and grown prettier as days went by.
seeing you so happy with him,
i feel happy for you too.
i will always be be there for you when you need someone.
really enjoyed every moment with you and the girls.
i miss you guys so much, of course, i miss gossiping and bitching with you guys more !
haha.
love you, girl. :))

2006-08-29T22:20:00.000-07:00

its only the 2nd day into attachment.
and i felt like as if i had worked for a week.
long working hours from 8.30 to 6, lack of rest and lack of h2o has caused me to be suffering from fever, sore throat and a cold.
feeling wobbly and weakish, totally not in the mood to do anything the moment i stepped into the house after work.
but as you all know, i am the maid of the house, so still, i had to drag myself to look after the kids, hang the clothes, wash the dishes and dump the garbage before i can call it a day.
argh
still, i am happy with my life now. :))

work wasnt that bad as i thot it would be.
i was assigned to be at the repection counter, yes, a marketing student trained to be a receptionist, totally no link to what i am studying.
haha.
but i am really glad to be doing something that do not require what i learnt in school,
becos seriously i have been a total slacker in school and had learnt nothing except how to bitch ans gossip, how to skip lectures without being marked absent and blah blah blah.
haha.
wasted my sister's money to go to school and learn craps. :((
anyway, work is still managable though there is lots to remember and learn.
also, people there are nice as well.
patiently teaching me and helping me out whenever i ga-brah. haha.
all in all, the job's not too bad lah. haha.

okay, i am seriously freaking tired already.
got to wake up early in the morning tomorrow still.
good night guys !

ps: will be very busy to update.

2006-08-25T22:55:00.000-07:00

then the birthday celebration continues back home. :))

the birthday boy ! :))

my brother and the 2 little monsters.

make a wish ! :))

his sister was so much more excited than he was. who's birthday anyway ?

blow the candles away. :))

singing the birthday song.

yummylicious ice-cream cake. thanks to mr felix chew for it. :))

2006-08-25T22:53:00.000-07:00

birthday celebration for my nephew on 19th august.
dinner at SAKE SUSHI at CHANGI AIRPORT T2. :))
a happy family get together.

my little cuties. but where is my brother and me ?

dont they look cute ? :P

i love tofu ! :))

the new vegetarian menu. did i tell you, my family's all vegetarian ?

2006-08-25T00:13:00.000-07:00

alright, jeremy's been complaining that i havent been entering "decent" entries and update him about my life.

haha. so jeremy, here comes one super "decent" entry alright ?
didnt know you are such a big fan of my blog.

wellohwell, exams have just ended.
papers were all quite alright, i should say.
if i studied hard enough and prepared earlier for it.
hmmm...kind of late to say such crap, isnt it ?
haha.
i'll just leave my results in the hand of god.
hope he will favour me this time round.

attachment starts on monday which is like just a couple of days away.
its at bukit batok home team ns.
no comments about it, just maybe that the pay is fucking low.
haha.
hope i can survive the 2 months there.
cross my fingers. :P

alright, i am dead beat.
let's just end it here.
shall continue some other day.
i just ended my papers and i need a bundle full of rest.
so long guys. :))

2006-08-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

finally, exam's over !!
its party time.

2006-08-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

happy 33rd birthday to my dearest and most beloved SISTER ! :))

i love you more than anything.
hearts. <3

2006-08-20T00:22:00.000-07:00

happy 5th birthday to my precious darling nephew ! :))
hearts him always. <3

please learn to behave yourself more and be more like a man ! :P

2006-08-19T22:36:00.000-07:00

2 down and 2 more to go.

feeling relieved yet anxious.
relieved that this stressful exam period is already halfway through, soon, it will come to an end.
anxious about the results of the papers, which i seriously think i had done badly for.

coming up next would be international marketing paper.
and i am totally not in the mood to study. :((
i just feel like having fun and slack through my days.
argh.
just bear with it and i will soon get out of this stupid school. :))
yeah.
waiting for that day. :))

wont be blogging till after exams.
see you guys soon. :))

2006-08-13T22:23:00.000-07:00

happy 20th monthsary ! :))

i love you and you love me, we are happy couple ! :P

2006-08-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

basking in bliss and happiness. :))
dear's on his block leave.

treasuring every minute and every second with him.
love love. :))

2006-08-09T22:14:00.000-07:00

happy 41st birthday to SINGAPORE ! :))

happy birthday to FELIX's MAMA ! :))

sending my warmest birthday wishes. :P enjoy !

2006-08-08T22:29:00.000-07:00

finally all presentations have come to an end.
no more burning midnight oil and getting headaches from all the projects.

i deserve a little break just before hitting the books again for exams. :))

2006-08-03T21:51:00.000-07:00

2 more presentations and this stressful period will then officially come to an end.
but not for long, we have to start mugging again for exams.
and after which, we have to go for our attachment.

gosh.

life as a final year marketing student sure is tough.
haha.
but well, to ensure myself a so-called good future, i am just laying the foundation. (seriously, my foundation is damn bloody weak lah)
lately, i have been thinking alot about how my future will be like.
early next year, i'll be graduating from this bloody polytechnic.
but i have neither a goal nor a direction of where i want head to.

look for a job ?
i dont think i want to attend the school of life that soon.
further studies ?
i dont think my family could afford to see me through uni. besides, i doesnt want to owe them anything anymore.

where should i go ?
i am beginning to worry about my future.
i dont want to waste my life.

2006-08-02T22:51:00.000-07:00

beware of the spoons you use from NYP south canteen. they got holes ! :P

2006-08-02T22:24:00.000-07:00

memories are so sweet and fond.
if i can turn back the time again, i will still choose to be with you.
but in a different way and at a different time.

now, we can only be friends.
wish you all the best with your gf. :))

2006-08-02T22:04:00.000-07:00

to the one who calls me his little princess.
to the one who promised to protect me from all harm.
to the one who never fails to keep his promise to me.
to the one who says that i am his favourite little sister.
to the one who has always been there for me when i am down.
to the one who truly cares for me.
to the one who truly understands me.
to the one who shared beautiful memories with me.
to the one who has gone missing-in-action ever since he got a gf a year ago !

happy 22nd birthday to RYAN, YOU MORON !!! :P

hey, please start contacting me again. its been like donkey years ever since you last called me and have a chat.
and i miss you loads !
i still remembered your birthday. :))
do take good care and please be happy. :))

2006-08-01T23:48:00.000-07:00

my group members are struggling with their own parts in the international marketing project and here i am doing nothing, erm well, i am looking through my photos in the past and changing my blogskins and that is what i am doing now. haha.

well, actually i have done my part already and am now waiting for more tasks to be given.
but i feel i am not taking any initiative in helping them even though i really want to.
contradicting ?
yes, i dont even understand myself.
i know i want to help but there is nothing on hand for me to do so.
i have seriously no idea what is this international marketing project all about.
how can i do conslusion or recommendation when i have nothing to start with ?

sometimes, i feel i am a lousy cum terrible cum slack group member.
i feel like i am not helping my group in any ways, even if i do, i need to be pushed so as to produce my part on time.
sigh
i must buck up and start doing something about it, and not just go about telling how much i want to help but do nothing in action.

alright, i got to go do my personal selling stuff.
byes ! :))

2006-08-01T21:53:00.000-07:00

looking back at these 2 photos, i can conclude that i have seriously put on lots of weight recently. ohmigosh, i am feeling so fat now. argh

shall go on diet, starting tomorrow ! becos at this very moment, i am still feeding myself with the x-large pack of LAYS bbq flavoured potato chips. my favourite! haha. :P

2006-08-01T21:16:00.000-07:00

i am so happy with my new blogskin !
this is just the layout i want.
simple and nice. :))

haha

dont bother about me, i am going nuts with my projects undone ! :P

2006-07-31T22:28:00.000-07:00

every day and night, i thought about you only.
hoping that when i open my eyes, you are by my side.
i pray hard that all these will be over soon.
i really wish to be with you every minute and every second.

looking forward to listen to your voice is what i do every day.
looking forward to the weekends is what i do every minute of the day.
i am missing you like crazy every second of the day.
are you missing me too ?

felix,
i cant promise you eternity. but i can promise you that for as long as i live, you will be in my heart.
i cant promise you a smooth sailing r/s. but i can promise you that as much as i can, i will never let you down or let you frown.
i'd do anything to make you happy, this i promise. :))

loving you* always.

2006-07-30T23:50:00.000-07:00

caught DRAGON TIGER GATE (how direct the translation can be) at west mall today with bf.
wellohwell, i have never been fond of action movies. and seriously, this movie is well, not really worth watching in the cinema. althought i have to admit that the effects of the show was fantastic and the actors were erm, cute, but the story line is not as great. in addition, shawn yue's hair sucks !! ohmigosh, from the moment he made his first appearance till he made his last, i keep nagging to bf that his hair was terrible. haha. i just dont understand why do they have to give him grey hair when he's looking so young still. or are they trying to give him a blonde head but failed terribly ? i guess so. but why do they have to do it, even though he starred as some guy who came from some other country in the west ? why cant he be an american born chinese who has black hair instead ? haha. seriously, i would give the movie 4 out of 5 stars. 2 stars go to my all-time favourite eye candy, Nicholas Tse. 1 star goes to the convincing effects and another 1 star for the overall of the movie. average.

nicholas tse is soooo cute ! :))

dont you agree that his hair looks so terrible ? yes, very terrible.

no matter what movie we are watching, i am still happy becos you are with me. :))

2006-07-30T23:12:00.000-07:00

some super out-dated photos. :))
our first night out. :))

loving him as much as ever. :))

its so hot in there.....

love love ! :))

acting cute. :))

2006-07-29T22:55:00.000-07:00

5 years.

today brings back the painful memory of what happened on this very day, 5 years ago.

it always scares me how things can change in just a spilt second.

sorry mom.
i love you.

2006-07-29T21:12:00.000-07:00

life libeartion today. :))
doing good deeds for my mama. hope she receives it and be happy in wherever she is now. :))

crabbies stuck on the net. i've got nothing better to do. haha

2006-07-26T23:38:00.000-07:00

i am on my verge of giving up this almost-2-yrs r/s.

for i am really tired of waiting.

waiting for his call every night.
waiting to meet him every weekend.
waiting to meet him on his night off, which i have to pray hard that he will get.

for i am really sick of being alone.

sick of having no one to count on when i am in trouble.
sick of having no one there to listen to my woes.
sick of having no one there to comfort me when i cry.

when will all these end ?
it has only been 6 months since he went into army,
and this is not the first time i complained and threatened to break up.
i seriously understand that he didnt want this to happen either.
it was against his wish to have to serve the nation.
then, why cant i be more understanding ?
why cant i stand in his shoes and spare a thought for him ?

i am such a terrible gf.

2006-07-25T23:51:00.000-07:00

didnt attend applied market research ica.
i really dont have the confident in attempting the paper.
and i seriously do not wish to risk my 30% of marks.

met alex on my way home today.
its been a long long time since we last met.
chatted alot about his life as an officer, my studies, his life now, my life with bf and the past.
yes, indeed it brought back many sweet memories.

remembered there was once how he celebrated my birthday for me. i think it was my 16th birthday then.
on the night of my birthday, ( we were still together then ) he asked me to meet him at the multi-storey carpark near my house.
when i reached there, i almost cried.
he lit up candles and placed them in the shape of a heart, in the middle was 2 pieces of cake. it wasnt a whole birthday cake, haha. but it didnt matter. it was the thought that counts. he was really sweet to me. very.
and most importantly, he got me a watch that i laid my eyes on for a long time.
i was really touched.
things just didnt work for us, we ended the r/s very soon.
stiil, i really appreciate what he did for me and the sweet memories he given. :))

me and bf are not going too well lately.
and i am on the verge of giving up.

sad.

2006-07-24T23:46:00.000-07:00

wellohwell, its been quite awhile since i last updated a decent entry.
there had been times when i had so much to write about but the thought perished as soon as i came to remember my tonnes of undone projects and research.

every semester, i will encounter such situation. i call it the time of the semester, if you ask me.
during this period of time, all of us will get so stressed up, we either lose our precious sleep or we skip our meals. we also get all tensed up and get a little more on the agitated side. seriously, i hate it. i hate muggings ! i hate research ! i hate reports !
but, after all projects and exminations are over, we will give ourselves little reward, like go sing out hearts out or get burnt under the sun. and that is what i love! the feeling of getting a heavy load off the shoulders and let our hair down to get totally wild.
hope this period of time will get over sooner, i really cant wait to get out of this stressed out mode. :((

in this world, there are just simply too many weirdos around.
for the past week, i've came to encounter the weirdest people i have ever met.

1.
there was once when i was on my way home from school and on the train, there was two guys who sat on my either sides and both were weirdos.
the one on my left was sleeping with his head moving like an old grandfather clock.
moving to the left and moving to the right.
at some point of time, his head almost land on my shoulder.
ohmigosh, cant his head stay at a spot for at least a second ?
argh
the one on my right was definitely worse.
he kept talking non-stop to me even when i was so reluctant to answer.
he just went on and on with his own nonsense.
oh gosh.

2.
and there was once when i went to the library, there was a malay guy who came up to my face and said,
" hey, you are very cute ! "
i was like....ermm....
den i just smiled and walked away.
after awhile, that guy came up to me and said,
" can be friends not ? "
i shook my head and left the library immediately.
oh gosh.
seriously, there are so many different kind of people in the world.
not as if i am perfectly normal in someone's view,
but please, dont let me meet this kind of weirdos again.
* cross my fingers *
haha.

alright, good night guys !
there's bloody school tomorrow.
urgh

2006-07-23T23:46:00.000-07:00

you said you believed that a r/s is built based on trust.
and if you accused me of going through your stuff without knowing what really happened,
is this what you call trust ?
i seriously doubt that you trust me.

i am very disappointed.
but the pain is more than the disappointment.

2006-07-22T23:29:00.000-07:00

havent been uploading photos. so here comes the tonnes of outdated photos. haha. :P

in the toilet. we are definitely so bloody kuku lah. haha.

this is my kuku with my bloody tiny clip. haha.

von, dont worry, you have definitely won the most kuku award. haha.

look at how i try to squeeze into frame. haha.

with that crazy gal, jieying. :))

ku ku and neh neh ! haha. loving her loads. :))

with yvonne liaw. sweets... :))

with my 2 darlings. friendship that never dies.

2006-07-22T23:28:00.000-07:00

jeremy said my eyes looked like those of a cat's. do they ? :X

we were supposed to make uglys faces, why yvonne look so cute, instead ? hmmm...

me and yvonne liaw. :))

hey, why am i the only one who make such ugly faces, while the yvonneS look so cute?

i want to kill this girl ! :P look how ugly i am. haha.

2006-07-22T23:27:00.000-07:00

before personal selling tutorial begins....

bryant got into a cat fight with his nephew. will he be disfigured ? hmmm...

can you spot the tear drop rolling down from yvonne's eye ??

i love this photo ! look so angelic. :P

kelvin tan aka andy lau wannabe ! haha. he look more handsome than that. samuel's photo taking skill is terrible ! by the way, in the background, indian pau ! haha.